Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Goodbye Blue Sky

Dear Dylan,

I am still alive.

Still breathing. Still moving.

Nothing amusing but still smiling.

Though time dealing with emotion and shit.

Let's just hoping for the best.

For the best.

The best.

Thursday, August 8, 2013


Dear Dylan, 

Peace and love everybody. Happy Eid ul Fitr to all muslim out there. Don't feel like writing much here. Anyway, may Allah bless all of you and may your life filled with joy,happiness, peace and prosperity. Enjoy your quality time with loved ones. Create precious memories that you'll cherish it forever. Have fun :)

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Money Talks

Money, get away. 
Get a good job with good pay and you're okay. 
Money, it's a gas. 
Grab that cash with both hands and make a stash.

Dear Dylan,

I love money. Well who doesn't ?  Okay first of all this is a pointless post. Everyone loves money. 

Money is love. People says money is not everything. But we need money to live. Maybe you wouldn't if you are still living in a cave naked and your job is hunting and collecting fruits in the wilderness lol. We are living in a modern world . Everything needs money. Needless to say, money is a high priority in life. 

I always want to be rich. Ever heard of 'law of attraction' ? The principle of law of attraction is thought can influenced result. By focusing on positive or negative thoughts, one can get positive or negative results. Let me put it this way, I always thinking about money so I hope I'm going to be rich in the future lol. 

At this moment I'm wondering why I'm writing this post. Hm screw me. 

Okay so as most probably know, we're living in a capitalism world where money is the head of all. Money can influence everything. In other word, people listen to money. Money is power. Under the capitalism social system, the rich people have always been in charge.  The most powerful people are the people with most money. That's the fact that you can't denied.

So the idea is simple. Either you poor and become nobody or you rich and become somebody. 

Good luck. :)

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Train In Vain

Dear Dylan,

Now I am having a hard time dealing with my emotion. Every night seems long and every day seems empty. I am sure it only takes time to get on with this but I don't have a clue how much time I need. Memories keep haunting and I couldn't bear with it. I know this pain won't last forever. All I need is time. 

I don't blame anybody but myself. I am the victim of my own misconduct. Yep I am guilty as charged. I take this accident in my own hand. No one to blame, just me. But you know they all said that everything happened in our life is a life lesson. There must be a blessing in disguise. We learn from past to be better in the future. That's why I have no regret knowing you.

I know time can be hard and memories can be pain. But we did this for a greater good. There are still a very long mile to go and we both have our own plan in life. I don't think having a special relationship is doing us any good. Allah is the best of all planner. Believe in him and everything is going to be just fine. 

This thing makes me realize something about myself. The awful truth, I am suck at relationship. I am alone for most years of my life before having a year of relationship. I don't think I am the relationship kind of person. I seems don't care about things that I am actually care. I don't know how to carry a good conversation. I am afraid of commitment and I think I am too young for this. I know people who read this must thinking that I am the villain in this story. I don't mind that. I know I made a huge mistake but I'm glad to realize before it's too late.

But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not. (Al Baqarah , 216)

This verses of Quran made me relied everything. We often wish our life is perfect but it didn't go as well as we wanted. But it doesn't mean that our life is doomed. Instead , it getting better and we felt no regret. There is always sunshine after the rain. You know why ? Because Allah knows what is best for us. Don't ever questioned Allah judgement. He knows everything that we don't. So why we are wasting our precious time hoping so much for something that don't necessarily be ours when Allah already has great plan for us ? I'm not the man high knowledge in religion but I believe in Allah and I think this is the best way for us before we get too carried away with feeling.

I am hoping the best for bost of us. From now on, we agreed to turn our focus on our education and family. I can't predict the future but I know Allah won't dissapoint us. Keep the faith and let's move on with our own life. 

Sunday, July 28, 2013

No Man's Land

Dear Dylan,

Life is hard. Sometimes we assumed that our life is perfect when we got everything we wished for, nothing to worry. Everything seems fine until suddenly it takes only a tiny little mistake to change everything. That's life. It didn't always be as we want it to be. The truth is, life can be hard on everybody and It doesn't matter who we are or what we do for a living and we are always feeling not satisfied with our life. 

Let me tell you something that you're already know, the world is a very nasty place. Yep probably most problems caused by mankind but the world itself is mean and dangerous. If we are not careful, the world will pull us apart and crush our skulls alive ( lol ). The world is not your friend. We might slipped if we don't know how to survive in this world.  

I never satisfied with my life. Don't get me wrong. I'm always more than grateful to Allah for giving me a blissful life and I am happy with my life at the moment. My life is just plain ordinary and I'm not born with a silver spoon but I know there're millions people out there dying to have a life like I am.  But it doesn't mean that I'm satisfied. I always say to myself that I always want more. 

Because why ? because we are human. We always want more. If we get good, we always want better. That's normal but it depends on how hard you work your ass to get what you wanted. A lot of people wants to be rich but not all of them succeed. It depends on your determination and passion to succeed.

That's how life works. No matter how hard it gets , you still have to keep moving forward to get what you wanted and when you get what you wanted, don't feel satisfied. Keep aiming higher. So you will keep marching forward and forward without giving a single fuck how hard life hits you. If you decided to give up before reaching the end, life may hit you hard. Keep moving forward and be confident of yourself. The truth is , this journey has no end. Only good memories and bad memories. 

And this pointless post came from a guy who spend his 5 month holiday doing nothing. I don't even know what I'm writing. Read at your own risk. I wouldn't even read this post for a 2nd time lol. bye